haha.. never thought that i also write my diary online.. i write on my diary book till sian liao.. waste my ink.. then later my hands tired.. think write here better.. so easy.. just type what you wan to say..
I hate my future.. i could predict how boring it was.. currently studying in sec5.. preparing for the stupid and idiotic "O" lvls.. bloody heLL.. i always have this mindset.. studying so much also no use.. if suay suay kena bang by car then all the years you studied all no use.. so why bother to study so much? in this compeitive world.. all you need to use this brain and mouth.. who cares whether how much you study.. haiz.. my future.. the moment i think i wanna die.. i lost my freedom.. everything.. i have to make it to university.. go poly or JC to there? either way will mould me into a nerd.. keep studying and studying.. only know abt books.. dunno what is happening around me.. actually i dunno why i must go university.. i never wanted to be a rich man.. or something successful in my career.. i just wanted a simple life.. a simple life.. however.. is impossible in this freaking world.. everything need $$.. eat.. live.. pay bills.. fuck man.. why can't everything be free? damnit.. 1/4 of my life have to study.. 1/2 of my life have to work.. another quarter of my life just left there to rot and die.. kao.. wht bother to live? life is so meaningless.. until i found myself a girlfriend.. my world become brighten.. thanks to her.. but now.. i think i have to leave her if i go JC.. i will have no time for her.. unless i go poly.. but.. from poly to university? sucicde man.. fuck la.. for me from JC to unversity also fuck.. damnit la.. i really dunno what to do.. i wanted die.. i wanted cry.. when the moment i thought abt this fucking thing.. i haven tell her abt this.. coz she is still having her exams.. her results is bad.. i don wan her to be sad and think over this thing and affect her exams.. i have promised to do many things wif her after my Os.. but.. all will be gone.. she have waited me since the day we go steady together.. i will have to disappoint her if i go JC.. everything will be gone.. including our relationship.. she is such a nice girl.. i am very sure that she is willing to wait for me for another 2-3 years after my JC.. but no use.. still got NS.. 2 years.. then by the time i go university she already completed her poly and go out work.. so i have to let her go.. let her go.. i dunno what i will become..
haIZ.. better settle my Os this year.. many of my primary friends already completed.. and i still on it.. i am such a failure.. haiz.. i slack too much this year.. i always slack.. even tml is exam.. you can still see me slacking.. and play.. i can't believe it.. why am i like that.. i always think it will be okay for me.. no problem one.. but always end up the other way.. fuck sia.. sometimes i studied like mad.. then the results still so suck.. nothing to say.. last month de prelim is the best example.. i really never study much.. very little.. mum is right.. to her.. i always waste my time and play.. always quarrel wif her.. and i always insisted that i got study a lot.. hai.. 1 month to my Os.. have to study.. plz.. must..
11:25 AM LeX
Profile
Name: LeX
Age: 19 Male
School: Stamford Primary School/St Gabriel Secondary School/Nanyang Poly
Birthday: 10 May 1987
Horoscope: Taurus
Location: South of Singapore
Email: poohks10@hotmail.com
