Everytime I try to fly... I fall without my wings.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

whAt a bad day.. although it was just one small incident.. but i think it was enuff to ruin my fUtuRe.. SO whaT was the damn incideNt..?

wHile doing the "O" geograpgy exam.. in the middle of the paper.. after 1hr.. i heard something that i shouldn't hear it.. guess what? A vibrator vibrating!! omG..!! of coz not.. a boy's school leH.. haha.. need that for whaT.. only girls need it.. haha.. it was a vibrator from a handphone.. lol.. i panic and look around.. wondering was whose.. then i began to check whether was it my handphone.. phew.. it wasn't mine.. i was glad.. and i felt safe.. but after awhile.. !!!!!!! i was still holding on my handphone! i panic! like a drenched chicken! oh damn.. what am i gonna do..?! oh shit! oh fuck! oh my god.. i was in a swirl.. i began to think whether should i surrender my handphone.. coz that fucker beside me.. his handphone was still vibrating.. and the invigilators that were walking.. pause by my side.. and listen.. thinking whether it was me.. i held my breathe.. continue to do my paper.. within secs.. they moved away.. i felt relieved.. the moment i thought of the invigilators suspecting me.. check my pockets of the exam.. i became nervous.. i couldn't hold my bladder as if there was a litre of urine waiting to release.. without hesitation.. i waved up my hand and handed my handphone to one of the invigilators.. lol.. she thought i wanted more papers.. haha.. sigh.. i was been told by the Head of Chief to see him after the paper end.. sigh.. i kept telling myself why i so dumb that i surrendered my handphone.. they could still say i cheated during that 1hr.. sigh.. i threw behind those negative thoughts and continued doing my paper.. the paper was easy.. but it seems i would get a O mark if they say me cheated.. sigh..

Everything was gone.. the thoughts of going JC.. getting gd result on this subject.. i was disappointed with myself.. scolding myself why i so careless.. the Head Of Chief had reminded all of us to keep our handphones in our bags.. but i just neglected.. thinking that those reminders are useless.. becoz i always put inside my bag.. but i was wrong.. i made a grave mistake.. i have no one to blame.. but myself.. sigh..

I am very sad and upset.. deep inside my heart.. but i didn't showit to anybody.. i dunno why i listen to those melancholy music.. make myself sadder.. lol.. siao.. haha.. but.. it cannot be redone.. like my DeaR said.. think so much also no use.. it also cannot change anything.. it has become history le.. so i always remain happy.. haha.. lol.. haiz.. sigh.. dunno why the things turned out so bad.. cheating in exam is an indictable offence.. haiz.. don wan to talk abt this liao.. so sad.. hope nothing will happen.. coz they don have evidences to say me cheat..

HooRay! 5-6 days more! then my Os finish le.. so happy.. got many many things things to DO! but then.. i wan to go work.. so a lot of things no time do.. guess the rest of my time i can afford.. go pei my lonely DeaR DeaR.. sad sad.. she suffered for so many days.. coz of me don have time to pei ta.. haha.. lol.. still can laugh.. haha.. stay happy.. my DeaR.. miss ya lots.. remember to decorate my blog.. haha.. love ya..

5:03 PM
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